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Seeing Myself Friday, Apr. 11, 2003 - 1:53 a.m. I had a lovely talk with Jamie late Thursday night. A month ago, I sent him copies of the first two books I ever read having to do with paganism: DRAWING DOWN THE MOON by Margot Adler, and THE SPIRAL DANCE by Starhawk. He's been reading DDTM, and he says he feels like he finally has found a form for his spirituality. That's a nice feeling when it finally happens in a person's life. We spoke by telephone instead of goofing around online like we usually do; his cable modem connection was acting peculiar and it was just easier to switch to voice instead of watching the AIM door slam shut and reopen and etc etc. I'm not quite sure where two hours went, but it was a lovely visit. I'm enjoying being part of Jamie's quest; he reminds me so much of me when paganism found me thirteen years ago. --- I've been thinking about Illinois Andy, and what's happened to me since I discovered his deception. People have come out of the woodwork and shown me a depth and breadth of kindness and support I never would have known otherwise. For all of the cruelty and evil and horror and falsehood and head trips he inflicted on me -- I still have to credit him in a strangely backassward way for being able to find true friends and real values among the wreckage. In addition to John and Kat and Brian and Corrie and Allison, Jamie and Paul are the two new shining lights that helped get me through the darkness and continue to help me do so when needed. Maybe Richard Bach was right. "Life will take care of you -- if you let it." I also thought it would be nice to show you good folks what I look like. I am the one on the left, with the darker brown hair. The bunny actually does have a name -- he is Carlysle, and was sent to me by Jamie, for my birthday. He also sent me a pink one, named Carnation, and his significant other, Nelson, sent a beautiful brown one that I named Spike. ---
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